Today is a frightening day.
Upon my new realization that God truly desires a personal relationship with me, comes the realization that I MUST trust him with everything---including events from my past.
Not simply the acknowledgement of the past but the feelings and fears associated with the events.
I fear the feelings causing Him to turn away.
I fear the feelings will overwhelm me and lead me back to the darkness (another trust issue!!! God WANTS to lead me to the light!!).
I have to confess to Him my "running away", trust that He won't run, and lay it ALL before Him in repentance and humility.
Am I strong enough to do this or is that the point?!
It's not about my strength but HIS strength, HIS character, HIS promises.