I have hurt with some who are hurting and rejoiced with some who are rejoicing. Being involved with a "small group" of those searching for the same thing and becoming involved with another for accountability purposes has been incredibly difficult and overwhelmingly refreshing at the same life.
When considering what all this worldly life has to offer, it all boils down to relationships. Sharing with one another, depending upon one another, feeling with one another, attempting to love one another in the un-demanding way that God loves us while trusting to God the consequences of the actions/words chosen has proven to be life/attitude-altering.
Many of my self-imposed-protective-barriers are coming down and though it is frightening, it is also liberating. While looking through some "old papers" the other day, I came across the following writing by Lois Cheney. May I never regret the "bits and pieces"...
Bits and pieces. Bits and pieces. People. People important to you, people unimportant to you cross your life, touch it with love and carelessness and move on. There are people who leave you and you breathe a sigh of relief and wonder why you ever came into contact with them. There are people who leave you and you breathe a sigh of remorse and wonder why they had to go away and leave such a gaping hole. Children leave parents; friends leave friends. Acquaintances move on. People change homes. People grow apart. Enemies hate and move on. Friends love and move on. You think on the many who have moved into your hazy memory. You look on those present and wonder. I believe in God's master plan in lives. He moves people in and out of each other's lives, and each leaves his mark on the other. You find you are made up of bits and pieces of all who ever touched your life, and you are more because of it, and you would be less if they had not touched. Pray God that you accept the bits and pieces in humility and wonder, and never question, and never regret. Bits and pieces. Bits and pieces. By (Lois A. Cheney, God is No Fool, 1969)