Chapter 1: Not So Well With My Soul
- Oh, how I can relate to those words. These past couple of years, my soul has been haunted by memories of the past which have included all sorts of regrets, "why-questions", and fears of what the future may hold. By God's grace, through His Word and fellow believers, I have come along way in regards to 'healing'.
- Unfortunately, over the recent holiday season, I was caught way off guard by the voices that I thought had been silenced and I allowed my thoughts and emotions to take me to a level of near tragic despair that I never would've thought possible.
I SO UNDERSTOOD the words that Jennifer wrote on page 13: "All those years of faulty thinking and equally faulty self talking had begun to manifest in bouts of frustration, sometimes pushing me to the ragged edge of despair." My prayer is to never, again, take my eyes off Jesus long enough to ever reach that depth of desperation again.
I appreciated the comments made on how our powerful words can be and how our talk shapes the lives we lead. More slowly than I'd prefer, I am learning what to say to myself and to base these words on the truths that God has made available.
2nd Corinthians 10:5 states "We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."
- I hate there are times I can't seem to rid my mind of the thoughts not obedient to Christ. It seems that there are times, when I unknowingly, have allowed myself to succumb to the thoughts of insecurities, lies, and failings. But I can't excuse myself as unaccountable when those moments occur. I suppose it is simply a matter of discipline and faith to make myself "take every thought captive".
Other Scriptures of guidance and comfort were:
- Romans 12: 2 (NIV) "be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is..."
- Proverbs 23:7 (NASB) For as he thinks within himself, so he is...
1. What does the soundtrack of your self talk most often sound like...? My thoughts are too often filled with self-condemnation, harsh judgments, fears, doubts, anger, and guilt. Thankfully, I am in the process of transforming these thoughts.
3. Are you willing to try some soul talk from the Bible? YES!! I am so excited about learning how to better CHOOSE and CONTROL my thought processes. I am eager for the guidance into what Gods says to be true and am thankful to not be going on this journey, or any other journey, alone.