Saturday, September 19, 2009

Proud of my brother!!

Last week, my brother, Kevin was "recognized" (after being injured in the line of duty last Spring) by the State of Texas at the Capitol. His healing has been progressive and he is back at work full-time though still in the process of recovering. SO PROUD!! If you missed the story of what happened last March, just click the following link: March 2nd

In case you can't spot my older brother, he is the small, shy one of the group (ha!) Thanks for allowing me to boast-n-brag for a bit.

Upcoming Bible Study and simply "checkin' in"...

Well, I'm having a harder time than I thought in re-joining the world of blogging. Hopefully, it's simply due to the start of the new school year...by the time I have the time to sit at the computer, my mind feels like a blank-slate filled with fatigue. I am so enjoying catching up on the post of my blogger-buddies but even stringing words to make a comment is proving difficult. Went to the dr. this past week, and began a round of antibiotics to fight off the "congestion crud" that is rampant throughout our campus right now. I went to bed last night at 7:30 (!!!) and have NOTHING but R & R planned for the weekend so hopefully, my brain will re-join the land of the living soon =-).

I am SO looking forward to the new on-line Fall Bible Study hosted by Lelia. The study will be based on Lysa TerKeurst's new book, Becoming More than a Good Bible Study Girl. LOVE the title and can't wait to delve into the book. Lysa is an amazing woman of God, as is Lelia.
For more information on how the online study goes, click on this link: Yes to God. Despite the lack of posting and "commenting", I am regularly in prayer for the ladies I've connected with through these studies. May God bless everyone with a safe and enjoyable weekend!

Sadness

(Written in July 2009...posted now as a reminder of this journey)


Sadness felt deep within my soul.
Impossible to comprehend the purpose of my life.

Shattered heart, chaotic thoughts.
Frightening dreams. Never-ending days.

Wondering why, wondering how,
Wondering if this will pass.

Been here before, and it did come to pass
But for what? Only to return.

Past seems useless. Present seems overwhelming.
Future seems to be hold nothing but the same.

Reaching out in prayer, crying out in tears.
Comfort only comes in exhausted states of sleep.

Know my life is blessed. Know all could be worse.
Just doesn’t seem to matter, because it’s not what I want.

Difficult in relating. Not sure what to offer.
Made by God for God. Want that to hold more meaning.

Serving Him by serving others. Reaching out to those in need
What may I offer when darkness is this deep?

Felt the goodness. Loved the warmth of light
How it was extinguished I haven’t figured out.

Don’t want to give up, yet so tired of the fight.
Difficult handling events in both the day and night.

Plans to destroy would only pass along the hurt.

Have discovered that running away doesn't work.
But how long can a hurt last. I’ve all but been removed.
I haven’t invested nor risked. I think that pain would end soon.

Selfish desires from a soul so weary and raw.
I know God hears me, but I’m not hearing his response.

Death should not be an option, but I die a bit each day.
No do-able solutions. Must it stay this way?

Act better than I feel. Just do it comes it mind.
Service to others will place my pain aside.

Counseling has taught me many ways to cope.
And brought me into a relationship with the God of Loving Hope.

I know that God does love me. I know that He does care.
I’m ashamed that those facts alone don’t seem to be enough.

I want to be settled. I want to be content.
I want to be of service, but my energy seems all spent.

Revival of the soul has the most appealing sound.
Where must I go… what must I do for this revival to be found?

Friday, September 11, 2009

Friday Fill-Ins


And...here we go!
  1. That's a fun place to be.

  2. Hey, rainclouds; I'm over here with our desperately-in-need-of-water yard!!

  3. The possibilities include: being with God or against God. There is not an in-between.

  4. Anything including chocolate ice cream is one of my favorite cool day recipes.

  5. How will you know if you don't at least give it a try?

  6. Tonight would be a perfect time for steady rain and a stormy sky.

  7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to simply resting, tomorrow my plans include attending my cousin, Racheal's wedding and Sunday, I want to attend Bible class, begin the study in Isaiah and finish up some lesson-plan details for next week!

Friday, September 4, 2009

Returning to the land of blogging...

Wow, it's good to be back and be in the process of 'catching up' with my blogging-buddies but the "break from technology" was a good one. Figured since time was limited right now, I'd begin with "FRIDAY FILL-INS"; if you want to play along, simply click on the capitalized words.

So much I wish I had the time to expand on right now but I'll leave some anticipatory remarks to remind myself what to come back to...
  • Marriage renewal IS occurring!
  • Re-connected with my big sister after a 9+ year disconnection.
  • Healthier relationships are being formed with my 2 siblings that have always remained in contact.
  • God-willing, I'm headed to Malaysia for a short-term mission trip in February! Never thought the school district would approve the leave of absence but all was approved within a matter of MINUTES!
  • A beginning of a school year unlike any other I've experienced in almost 16 years!
  • New local Bible study that I am so looking forward to!
  • Minor-but-aggravating health issues seem to be under control!
  • All babies are miraculous but 2 extra-special births have occurred within the past 3 weeks and on the same day!
  • Working situation has changed and though apprehensive at first, it's been an amazing transition.
  • 2 Godly-women whom I've "known" are now considered friends and I feel so blessed!
  • Falling more & more in love with Jesus everyday and am so grateful that God is good ALL the time; despite worldly circumstances, attitudes, actions, and emotions!
Well, how's that for a few remarks?! =-) Now on to the "fill-ins".

Praying that all have a safe and enjoyable Labor Day weekend!
1. I feel very grateful for the "Labor Day Weekend". Not sure who is responsible for this particular holiday but THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!.

2. No-particular-destination-in-mind-driving with a good frame of mind and a great CD is always fun.

3. Right now, I can hear these things: neighborhood music blaring, dogs barking and the Cowboys last pre-season game.

4. Today is my friend, David's first birthday after his death last December. I miss him more than I ever thought possible and I'm glad that he is no longer in pain and that God blessed me with the unconditional love and friendship with this amazing man.

5. The last time I saw my 'baby sister' and her baby was in June...longest time EVER without seeing her and I'm experiencing withdrawal pains.

6. Did I express HOW grateful that I am for this Labor day weekend?!? =-)

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to mindlessly watching the Cowboys game, tomorrow my plans include sleeping in and catching up on neglected chores and Sunday, I want to attend worship services, spend some school-district money ;), and plan for something FUN to do on Monday!