Thursday, May 6, 2010
Realizations and repentance...
I should have been home long ago but there is something about the solitude of a school building that is emptied and quiet after an active, lively day. I have spent the last 1 1/2 reading over blogs and Spiritual sites that bless me in more ways than I could ever express. Some posts brought smiles to my heart and others tears to my eyes. I hadn't realized until earlier in the week how I have allowed the current conflict with some of my in-laws to, literally, dominate my thoughts and my time. There isn't a foreseeable end to the chaos that ensued on Easter Sunday. I am at peace with God, my husband, and myself but am so saddened that my mother-in-law will be experiencing a 'divided-family' on Mother's Day.
The family member that is INSISTENT that I have committed apostasy (I had to look up the word) is calling on others in the family to withdraw and confront me as she has regarding the issue of my lost soul since I have turned away from God by failing to worship at "His one true church". That attitude alone saddens me, as do the words that have been expressed, and the actions that have been taken.
I know that God is right here with me and He is fully capable and willing to 'fight this battle' without any input from me yet I feel helpless because I am, literally out of words that I wish would come and help to possibly alleviate some of the pain that this has caused within this family.