Saturday, June 16, 2012
I don't quite as easily shed a tear over the friends I lost over 20+ years ago but a sadness remains knowing they are gone and their loved ones still think of them each and every day. My friend David passed away over 3 years ago and I still can't speak about him without tears filling my eyes and a heaviness in my heart that I can't explain. The grief seems to deepen as time goes by. I miss his humor. I miss his hugs. I long for his insight on things that are going on in my life. Because of his health, I knew that losing him was a reality I'd most likely have to face one day but I never imagined it would be this hard. When he left, it truly feels like a huge part of my heart went with him. I am amazed at how well his wife and children have continued on with their lives because I can't even imagine the depth of their hurt and grief.
I've heard "Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened"----and I can do both in the same moment. HATE the hurting. Long to be with God in a place of continual peace but until that time comes, I hold tight to His Words: