Friday, December 26, 2014

Daily Gratitude (72-77)

Saturday, December 20 (72)

1. Care-free, no-obligations kind of day
2. UP and ion TV offering back to back holiday movies.
3. Blessings of heat and A/C in an unpredictable season of weather

Sunday, December 21 (73)
1.  Lovely Christmas decorations
2. Giggles of children
3. Rhyder feeling significantly better from the flu

Monday, December 22 (74)
1. Enjoyable time at movies watching Annie
2. Kim's friendly attitude on garage sale site
3. 1st day of holiday break

Tuesday, December 23 (75)
1. Keith's birthday
2. For folks speaking truth to me even when it's a hard thing to do.
3. Conveniences of frozen food

Wednesday, December 24
1. Brookshires having everything I needed at the last minute
2. My mom's willingness to help me even when I'm not sure if the need
3. Excitement of the boys looking at the Christmas lights

Thursday, December 25 (77)
1. Kaeden's early morning Christmas excitement
2. Meaningful conversation via messaging with Melanie
3. Leslie's ability to always make me laugh
4. The much-treasured friendship with and support of Keith and Vickie
5. Precious memories of David
6. Randy's continual care and prayers

Friday, December 19, 2014

Daily Gratitudes (64-71)

Friday, December 12 (64)
1. Weekend!!
2. Giftcard to Walmart
3. Kaeden after school

Saturday, December 13 (65)
1. OTC meds
2. McDonalds meal
3. I wanna hode you, Sha-Sha

Sunday, December 14 (66)
1. Rain
2. Laundry
3. Bday
4. Lunch

Monday, December 15 (67)
1. OTC meds
2. Miss you msg from coworkers
3. My beautiful niece and her kind, loving heart

TUESDAY, December 16 (68)
1. My amazingly loving mom.
2. Precious friends who make little things mean so much.
3. Silliness of my puppy-loves.

WEDNESDAY, December 17 (69)
1. Productive conference with a classroom momma.
2. Availability of programs through Family Services.
3. Finding forgotten cash that was put back for a rainy day.

THURSDAY, December 18 (70)
1. Kindness and support from co-workers when facing difficult circumstances.
2. A great evening of Woodland Heights first Christmas Musical Performance.
3. All "needs" for our class Christmas party being provided.
4. Laughter and memories with my sister.

FRIDAY, December 19 (71)
1. Wonderful classroom party.
2. Being remembered by caring friends.
3. "I love you" and genuine hugs from my newest student. Precious child who has been through so much.
4. Knowing that God can and will provide for those in need in far better ways than I can even imagine.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Daily Gratitude (63)

1. Maranda's thoughtfulness in sharing items for my puppy loves.

2. Giggles and laughter from Rhyder, Camden, Rylie and Kaeden.

3. My students' enthusiasm and excitement about Christmas fun.

4. Financial generosity for children in need.

5. Linda's honest feedback and encouragement.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

90 to Nothing

Finding it hard to sleep tonight but that's not based on anything bad. My mind is simply going ninety to nothing with plans, ideas, hopes, dreams, etc.

I am feeling the freedom of what others had promised would come to pass. God has lovingly removed "blinders from my eyes" and has allowed me to see things in a way I never imagined. I am beyond grateful to know that I can have full trust in Him for a fulfilling future on whatever path He has prepared.

I am so looking forward to the holiday break. I am planning to return to the Tyler area to spend some time with a treasured friend who is in the midst of unexpected grief. I had considered going there this coming weekend but it's simply not financially feasible or job-wise responsible. I know she understands and I know that there are many by her side right now. I've decided to not stay directly in Tyler, over the holiday break, unless I'm able to stay at Peggy's apartment while she is away for the holidays. I'm REALLY looking forward to some "me time" on the road and with few responsibilities. Each break in the 2013-14 school year was spent in care-taking situational roles and this past summer was a blur. I've decided to skip the traditions of Christmas this year and simply focus on the blessings of friends and family without all of the holiday engagements, performances, etc. I may even take a trip up to Oklahoma for some fun with the Agee's.

My side of the family will be meeting in Greenville this year at my brother's house. Mixed feelings about that. Greenville is not one of my favorite places but it will be nice to spend time with the twins along with getting to see Keith & Vickie, Coralee and possibly my sister, Teresa.

I started 3 different books within this past semester that I was asked to blog about but the opportunities to do so weren't as easy as I thought they would be time-wise. Too much going on with limited emotional energies. Hoping to at least get two of those read.

Now that the divorce process is on it's way, a sense of peace has come in knowing that the right choices have been made and the end of the 'drama' is drawing near. Having a lawyer deal with all of the details will be money well-spent. The manipulations in simple written correspondence are blatantly obvious and it's nice to simply say: okay, everything is negotiable---just talk it through with my lawyer.

The doors that have opened and the opportunities that have occurred are so clearly from God, that I truly have no worries about whatever the outcome will be. Regardless of whatever happens, I know that I am much-loved and will forever be taken care of. Simply looking around my house tonight and taking note of just the material provisions that I've been blessed with makes it hard to believe that I began here with only an inflatable mattress, a borrowed microwave and a rocking chair. Takes my breath away in awe and gratitude.

Excited about the life ahead and whatever experiences God allows to occur.

Daily Gratitudes (62)

1. Break-through connection FINALLY with one if my precious classroom loves who is currently in foster care.

2. Fun girls night out at Chili's.

3. Yummy strawberry margaritas!! I had forgotten how much I enjoy that drink! Slushy with salt :)

4. Successful committee meeting at work. So blessed!

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Daily Gratitudes (60) (61)

Monday, December 8, 2014
1. Sweetness of my 3 year old nephew and his "school friends" singing and acting out The Nativity Story.

2. Pleasure of my momma's company this evening.

3. Being able to help someone in need.

4. A kind message from a soon-to-be-ex-inlaw-family member.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

1. Ability to find a reasonably priced groomer for my puppy-loves.

2. Yummy lunch idea with Deidra.

3. Fun afternoon with Kaed and Rhyder.

4. 8 more school days until holiday break!!

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Letting Go

Letting Go (12/1/14)

Letting go of what never really was.

Letting go of the ideas.

Letting go of the regrets.

Letting go if the resentments and anger.

Letting go of the shame and the self-depreciation.

Letting go of the possibilities.

Letting go of the plans and the hopes.

Wondering what will be, with hope for the future and peace in my heart.

Knowing that my life has forever changed and that I'll never be the same.

Knowing that is, in fact, a good thing and for that I'm grateful.

Daily Gratitudes (58) (59)

Saturday, December 6, 2014
1. Gorgeous day. Nice to have windows open and fresh air.
2. Safe travels to New Mexico for Sheryl and her boys.
3. Discovering the box of previously bought Christmas gifts that I thought I had overlooked on my last trip out to what once was my house.

Sunday, December 7, 2014
1. Sheryl's generosity in allowing me access to her home and her washer and dryer ;)
2. Safe return of Sheryl's goofy-butt dog, Kimber, who apparently has very little obedience skills.
3. My momma's loving-kindness and willingness to come over and help me clean the house and decorate a bit for Christmas.
4. Honest conversations with a treasured friend.
5. The ways in which Susan and Thomas have  stood by me in kindness, loyalty and love for 17 years. Thomas will be greatly missed and I cannot imagine the ache in Susan's heart.

Friday, December 5, 2014

Who I Am (besides obviously being a work in progress)

I can't be who anyone else wants me to be me.
I can only be who I am.

I am a child of God which in turn makes me one who will treat others with the kindness, love and mercy that the Lord has freely given to me.

I am a believer in the one True God, His Son, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.
Being a believer will lead me to a life that is centered upon God's Will and His Words.
I welcome all relationships that will encourage me on that chosen path.

I am a "child-at-heart".
I love spending time with children and fully expect my life to include associations with children either through teaching or some form of ministry.

I am an American and am so blessed by that reality.
I will not take this privilege and honor for granted.
I will use these privileges to bring blessings to others, whether at home or abroad.
I will also show proper respect and gratitude to the courageous men and women who fight for and protect those blessed freedoms daily.

I am generous with my belongings and my time.

I am slow to trust but once trust is earned, I am loyal and devoted.

I am a sensitive person which includes intense empathy for the feelings of others and also leads to times of needing absolute solitude to replenish.

I appear to be extroverted to most because I easily meet people and can keep a conversation going but once the initial meetings are over, people realize how introverted I truly am.
That tendency toward introversion can be a personal struggle.

I am a lover of people.
I want to hear their stories and be involved in their lives.

I am a helper and a care-taker with a heart filled with compassion.
That greatest strength can also be my greatest downfall.

I am very intuitive about others and, unfortunately, sometimes rush to judgement.

I am by far my own worst critic.

I tend to assume too much personal responsibility for things that are truly beyond my control.

I am a firm believer in the power of prayer yet my tendency to be a control freak can weaken my spiritual faith.

I believe in the goodness of people and in the ability of change to occur within a person's life.

I am a strong advocate for the downtrodden and mistreated; especially in terms of children, animals and the elderly.

I am easily amused and love to have fun.

I like to laugh and be silly.

I shy away from intense drama in entertainment and avoid all tear-jerkers.

I love being outdoors even though my outdoor skills are limited.

I love playing games and being involved in sports but I'm not generally all that competitive.
It's more about fun.

I love to travel---by car, by plane, by boat...

I like to cook; especially baking but am very dependent upon tried and true recipes.

I love participating in Women's Bible Studies and am always amazed in the ways God works in those situations and in those relationships.

I have always wanted to learn to draw and to play the piano.
Maybe one day...

My favorite role in life thus far is in being an aunt.
I can't even imagine how much parents must truly love their own children because my niece and nephews hold my heart in their hands.

Teaching is my profession but also my hobby.
Always on the lookout for new ideas.

I am still surprised by how much I really enjoy camping out and going fishing.

I am very conscientious and that strong sense if right and wrong can be both a blessing and a curse.

I hate confrontations but am growing stronger each day.

I am quick to stand up for the rights of others yet am just now developing the abilities to stand up for myself.

I am capable of being a leader but much prefer being part of a team.

I love music and am in awe of how impactful it can be even though I can't read a single note or carry a simple tune.

I am easily aggravated by those who are content with remaining a victim of whatever circumstance.

I desire authentic, genuine relationships.

I don't sweat the small stuff but sometimes fail to recognize the true size of some circumstances or situations.

I enjoy reading and writing.
Historical fiction, time travel and autobiographies are my my favorite types of books.
Writing is a personal thing---usually in a journal as often in the form of a prayer.

And recently, I learned that I really love to shoot guns at inanimate objects.
A hunter I will never be but I could easily go to a shooting range on a regular basis.

Daily Gratitudes (catching up!) (53-57)

Monday, December 1, 2014
1. Fun and creative teaching ideas.
2. Unexpected financial blessings.
3. A safe neighborhood

Tuesday, December 2, 2014
1. My ability to "feel" the pain of others which enables me to help in some small way.
2. Kind words from a co-worker.
3. Friendliness of strangers

Wednesday, December 3, 2014
1. Privilege of prayer.
2. Power of laughter.
3. Light-hearted moments

Thursday, December 4, 2014
1. Establishing a trusting relationship with Linda.
2. JaLisa's unexpected hugs
3. Good rapport with family if a student

Friday, December 5, 2014
1. Celebrating the day Sheryl was born.
2. Ease in relationships with co-workers.
3. Earlier than usual dismissal from work.